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I spoke about the illusion of choice and fatalism, but perhaps more important than describing patterns of behavior that are conducive to well-being is debunking what is harmful to our well-being.

Here’s the one minute summary of the illusion post:

 

 

Which “Self” Should We Esteem?

We’ve been told since the earliest we can remember that we should improve our self-esteem.  We are told that we should be proud of who we are and view ourselves in some lofty way.

We think that we should esteem this self and so we try to change our opinion of what we think is ourselves.   We tell ourselves to think positively about ourselves and how we’re really the shit.  We think of all of the ways we’re great and we get momentarily excited and exuberant.

I ask the reader, however, which “self” should we be esteeming, exactly?  Should we esteem our conscious mind, our thoughts or who we feel “We” are?

How Building Your Self-Esteem Can Be Harmful

I believe self-esteem building is a colossal mistake.  What results from this approach/style of thinking is a strengthened sense of self, a greater illusion of “I” and more neuroticism.

Think about what happens when we prop your “self” up and you tell yourself how great you are.  The importance of this thinking self naturally increases.  You start creating a web of illusions about this self.

But what happens when this self f*cks up? What do we do then?  Create more illusions about how we don’t care? The fact is you do care because you like viewing yourself in some grandiose way and that’s why you prop yourself up with just more thinking.

Dan Harris went through his life with only valuing his thinking mind.  He cared too much and so he started getting anxiety and being a workaholic to escape his reality.  He had no “self-esteem” even though he was successful in his profession.  The most successful people are woefully insecure.

 

 

We Should Esteem Ourselves, But Not the Self You’re Thinking About

I say we should esteem ourselves more, but not the self you’re thinking about and not the way you’d instinctively try to do it.

We should esteem the self that is aware of the fact that we’re thinking, not the thinking mind itself.  You can call this aware mind, as opposed to the thinking mind (in reality our brain is always making computations without thinking).

To esteem or respect the aware mind is to not esteem or value what goes on in our thinking mind at all.  To respect ourselves is to allow ourselves to be as we are, not as our thinking mind wants us to be.  To esteem ourselves, then, we should focus on being and “awareness” and not by thinking just more thoughts.

To esteem who we are, doesn’t require complimenting ourselves, but instead, understanding who we truly are -our capabilities, wants, desires, etc..- and unconditionally accepting this reality.

If we accept this reality, it means we stop trying to change who we are and instead work within the boundaries that nature has set for us.  It means we realize the folly and absurdity of our human experience and fully accept it.

The Absurdity of Our Experience

What do I mean by the absurdity of our experience?  Everything we see and experience is through the lens of our limited consciousness, not some absolute fact.  Color is literally just a wave of a certain length that bounces off of some object.  If the wave is just a fraction longer or shorter, we see it as a different color.   However, we experience color as something completely different – something we all know but can’t describe.

We experience the hardness of a rock because of the softness of our skin.  In reality, there is no hard or soft in an absolute sense, it’s just how we experience the world.   Everything is made up of spinning electrons around protons and some other subatomic particles.  At the level of protons, electrons, and subatomic particles, one particle isn’t different than another.  There are no real differences in objects, except in the number and arrangement of these particles. Our experience sees objects in a completely different way than their absolute reality.

Our Feelings of Worthlessness is Just an Experience

If we’re depressed or feeling worthless, it’s not because of some absolute fact, or external factor, but merely because of our own perception and experience, which we can’t control by thinking about it differently.  Trying to change a feeling of worthlessness is like trying to change how you see the color red.   As hard as you try to see the color red as just a wave, you still won’t be able to.

The only thing you can do is watch and accept your experience for what it is: an illusion that we can’t change or help to see differently.  This doesn’t mean we aren’t experiencing it, but we should see it for what it is – as a biological oddity – and observe it, just like we see a wavelength as the color red.  This pattern of thinking is conducive to overall well-being, but doesn’t magically change the experience you find yourself in any given moment, so you shouldn’t expect this outcome in the short term.

The Importance of Psychedelics

Steve Jobs is known to be supportive of psychedelic usage – at least once.   The reason why psychedelics are important is because they change our experience in such a way that we see how illusory our perceptions are.  We can experience color and reality differently for the first time by manipulating our biology.  (I hope to try these soon.)

“You” Are Your Own Worst Enemy

All of your problems are created from within you – either because of  your subconscious (i.e. our biology, and we can’t control this) or because of your ego (the “I”) tries to change the real you.

By trying to change our experience, the only thing that changes is the strain we feel from trying to do this.   Therefore, “You” are your own worst enemy and instead of trying to strengthen or esteem this “You”, we should see it for what it is: an illusion.

Therefore, what it means to truly esteem ourselves is to esteem our true self and just be.  Instead of trying to build what we think is our self-esteem,  we should lower the esteem we have (this illusory “self”) and let our experiences be as they are by not interfering or trying to change anything.

The Take Away

If your biology is working fine, then the only possible reason for not feeling good about yourself is because of your ego or what you think of as “You” – the thinking mind.

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5 COMMENTS

  • Jean

    Salvia never gave me a spiritual trip. I tried it several times. Time just got super slow and colors were really vivid. People with “control freak” tendencies should avoid it. They will experience hell.

    However, straight DMT was great. This was 9 years ago. I was 17 years old when I tried it (Couldn’t get my hands on Ayahuasca) and I just experienced love. Removed all my “cool piercings” after the trip as well, because I realized how ridiculous they were. I started to love myself more and I also realized how lucky I was to live.

    However, mindfulness (meditation and self-affirmations) are the best things I’ve ever done. These beat all the drugs (even marijuana), books, quotes and experiences in the world, in my opinion.

    I would say that Sadghuru’s videos (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUdHX1Bent0) and the book Ask and it is given by Abraham Hicks (Law of attraction) changed me the most.

    Accepting death is the most powerful thing one can and should do in this lifetime. If you are afraid of death and if the thought makes you feel small and powerless, read the book “The Tibetan Book of the Dead” by Bardo Thodol.

    One love.

    1. Joe

      Never heard of Sadghuru, but it looks like he’s saying the same things as I am. Good video.

      This is also good

      I’ll start looking at his videos….

      1. Joe

        Same philosophy with diet
        https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4NUlfqqT9I

        Same philosophy. We can’t control what we think, but when I became more mindful, I disengaged and 95% of the thinking eventually stopped. 95% of the things I think about now is about ideas not related to me.
        https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2EPuGabgpc

        https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Kea0ac0XuE&feature=youtu.be&src_vid=e2EPuGabgpc&feature=iv&annotation_id=annotation_3095395155
        Desire

  • Andrey

    Thank you, Joe, excellent post.

    Math, physics and other hard sciences are the greatest cure for neuroticism, when paired with the desire to really understand the physical world.

    As for the psychedelics, you may want to give Salvia Divinorum a try. I tried it when it was still legal in my country, and it felt like all my senses became mapped some different way on the regions of my brain 🙂 For example, “frames” of my sensory experience came in batches that I could observe at once, not frame-by-frame. This showed me just how arbitrary my experience of the real world is.

    If psychedelics are hard to get, you may want to achieve the same with lucid dreaming. People said that a lucid dreamer can create an arbitrary set of sensory modalities inside the dream. For example, some people like to imagine (or rather create) themselves as dragons or tigers or octopi or even persons of the opposite gender.

    1. Joe

      Thanks Andey.
      -I agree
      -Interesting – wouldn’t know where to get that
      -Also interesting. I want the full experience so I’m going to go for Psylocibin or “Shrooms.” I’ve recently met people who told me they’ll get it for me, so I think it’s just a matter of time.

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